Thursday, August 1, 2013

Day 1

I've woken up more days last month in tears or on the verge of them. I kinda know why, and I kinda don't want to talk about it.

I tried smiling today. A friend told me I don't smile enough. Maybe that's true. I tried smiling today and it ...hurt. Not real pain, but it felt fake, so inauthentic that no matter which way I smiled, how hard I tried to evoke memories of happiness, none of those smiles fit.

So I stopped smiling. Maybe I've stopped smiling for years.

I decided going for a walk would make me feel better. It did. Still not smiling.

Here's to a better day 2. #31writenow

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